11.23.2010

Guilty Pleasure...

So, this summer I was dared by a close friend to audition for Season 6 of the hit showThe Bad Girls Club... Not ever taking any of the interviews seriously, I actually advanced significantly in the interview process, making it to personal skype interviews with casting directors in LA! Although I did not make the cast, I am a big big fan of the show, and did my internet scoop to dig up dirt on the cast of season 6, which premieres in January of 2011.

The cast is returning to Los Angeles this season... I can't wait to see what this season has to offer! Craziness I can guarantee! I'm especially excited because they FINALLY picked a girl from Dallas! Somehow I managed to find a clip of the one of the first fights.... Looks intense.


**Small world? I wrote about a cast member from BGC6 being from Dallas... come to find out we went to the same high school! I don't remember her though. Clearly wasn't too memorable! LOL I joke, I joke. I'm anxious to see how she acts this season. From what I've heard she's obsessed with her ass and her boobs. That's annoying.

11.19.2010

Lanvin for H & M

November 20th, 2010, H&M will be releasing their Limited Line collection of the season, this year designed by Lanvin! The designs are spunky, risque in terms of color and detail, yet classic and distinctive at the same time.

Here are a few snapshots from the collection. You can preview entire collection on H&M's Website which is extremely interactive and breathtaking at captivating the beauty of each Lanvin piece. What I want the most are the turquoise velvet embellished pair of heels! [pictured below] The heels are to die for and give me Marie Antoinette, very circa 1700's.

Lines will be forming in the early morning for this collection and the supply won't even last a day.



I love this black look. The shoes have crystals around the upper heel!

*gasps* ...these are the shoes I want! *melts*

Lanvin unleashed somethin' for the fellas too...


Dresses are priced from $149 to $249, women's coats are $149 to $349, and all women's shoes are $99.

-Photo Credit: Huffington Post

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back.

So as I'm rummaging through the mess of my poor little ramshacked blog, putting the pieces and ideas together for Bella Essence's Jan 2011 relaunch, I felt as though I needed to write, so here I am. I hope you enjoy the changes so far with more to come in the near future!

Last night, ladies and gentlemen, I discovered a rat was in my kitchen. Yes, I said it. A rat.

Exhibit A, also, my new suite mate.

Now sadly, many of you all are going to read this, and think, "It's just a rat... Rats are always in the Towers." But this is where I'm confused. WHY on earth do others rationally and openly accept the fact that a living facility has a defiant rodent issue? THIS IS NOT OK! We are better than this and we deserve better than this! And if you've forgotten, we also PAY for this! So, in essence, if you deem this reaction of mine as dramatic or unnecessary, you're willingly stating that you would pay for a place to stay that occupies not only you, but rodents as well. This, to me, sounds like an immediate problem that has persisted for far too long.

I understand that things like this happen, but to due to the high frequency of rodent oriented occurrences alone, I have no choice but to blame the Howard Plaza Towers for this. Failure to secure a clean, healthy, safe living space for students is a breach of their duty to us, and we should not continue day by day, week by week, month by month, semester by semester, year by year to tolerate this mistreatment. It is not clean, safe, and/or healthy to enter your kitchen only to discover a rat is running across your countertop, stove, and cooking areas where the food that you consume is prepared. That, to me, is an extreme health risk alone, and it baffles me that there is not more concern regarding this problem.

This is a battle that needs to be fought in order to make a mark on the administration not only of the Howard Plaza Towers, but the university as a whole. As a Senior here at Howard University, over the past three, going on four years I have witnessed many examples of the internal flaws of the school which are unexplainable, unprofessional, and unbecoming of the representation that Howard University strives to exude. I don't understand why there are so many strong voices on Howard University's campus alone, and proper treatment in not only our living quarters, but administratively as well, is something that Howard fails to deliver us. I saddens me that my colleagues have allowed this university to make them think that it is acceptable to live under these conditions, and I am ashamed that no matter what I say or do, my concerns and desires for better treatment, proper respect, and adequate service will merely be brushed aside as if they don't matter.

I ask you this question...

Think about those who came before us who were monumental vessels of change that made history that effects us still to this day. Although my rodent issue is miniscule in comparison, think of those such as Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King, and Malcolm X. What would life be like if they silenced their voice and did not stand up for their rights and what they believed in? In my opinion, this is no different. Yes, a rat being in kitchen is not the end of the world, but it's more than that. It's the issue of self respect and the acknowledgment that I'm worth more and deserve better than to pay to attend and live at a university that does not provide me with professional and respectful service, as well as a safe, clean, and secure place to, at the end of the day, call my home.

I ask you all to reflect, as well as act on these principles knowing that your rights are important, and standing for what you believe in is a voice that should always be heard.

A silence voice is a producer of no words.
Change does not come silently, and
without change, everything will stay the same.

11.15.2010

"....please excuse the mess!"

...you never know what I'm gonna say next!

I'm working on making Bella Essence the best it can be for a HUGE relaunch Jan 2011! Not only will Bella Essence continue to explore the 'Beautiful Significance' of the little things in life that I feel are oftentimes overlooked, but I will also be incorporating my passion for Fashion, Creative Design, Music, and more!

I have a lot to look forward the near future and I can't wait to share my stories, experiences, and outlooks with you all!

In the meantime, feel free to read my previous posts, or leave a comment of what you'd like to see or see more of! Thanks for the support.

As always,
C.LO

2.26.2010

.Breakdown.

I need to make it a habit to blog more frequently... This is something I really enjoy so I need to make time for it! Hope you missed reading :)

Yours truly! (With absolutely no makeup on at that! #BOW haters!)
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It's been a while since I've made a post and I've got to say a lot has happened! Being here at Howard at this point in my life is truly teaching me a lot about myself and a lot about other people and how they act. I'm glad I can look at others and take from what they do and say and then in turn reflecting on myself personally and improving where I see flaws.

I have realized I am a very compassionate, giving person, and people take advantage of me for it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad, I choose to be so giving; I can't even be mad. What does it do for me to be mad when I have put myself out there and made myself vulnerable to peoples behavior such as this? I have no control over how people act and no matter what I do or say can change that. Bottom line -- PEOPLE ARE GONNA DO WHAT THEY WANNA DO WHEN THEY WANNA DO IT. Point blank period. No negotiations. All I can do it control myself and be the best person I can be.

So what can I do in such situations that I find myself in ALL THE TIME? Remove myself. That is all. Don't allow yourself to be mistreated by anyone regarding any matter. KNOW YOUR SELF WORTH and VALUE and APPRECIATE IT. At the end of the day, no one is going to hold it down for you BUT YOU. It's never about allowing yourself to be disrespected. I, personally, am the type to just stop talking in the middle of an argument because two parties yelling back and forth isn't going to resolve anything. If I've said all I can say and tried my best to correct the matter, then what's the use? It's not that I lack consideration for the person, its not that I don't value the relationship, it's not that I'm weak and get pushed down by the other persons words . . it's life is too short for me to invest time, energy, and emotion in a relationship that isn't going to be a positive factor in my life.

What's the point of having a relationship that you constantly have to worry about the person not giving their 50 percent? There is no relationship worth giving 90 and receiving 10. As much as you care about the person you must realize and understand that after they have proven what kind of person that they are, they are not going to change. As many times as they tell you differently, as many times as you blatantly tell them how they're making you feel . . most oftentimes it's no use.

Finally, I have been able to accept the fact that I've been battling a toxic relationship for a while now, and I am taking the steps to getting past it. Don't get me wrong, its a process to detox yourself after being "sucked dry" of everything you have to give (in one of my cases, for an extended period of time -- The earlier the discovery the easier it is it move on). But as hard as it is, at the end of the day, it feels so great to know that I stood up for myself and didn't allow someone to be so ruthless and break me down until I have nothing left to give to the next person who just may turn out to be just as compassionate as me....