2. It's Been A While...

So, thought I had forgotten about my blog eh? Nah. Just needed a bit to collect my thoughts, think about what I was going to say next.

The topic... ergh, question, of this post will be brief, because I have another topic that I will post this week :)

QUESTION:

Everytime I meet a guy,

I feel as if I need to put my guard

up in fear that I will get my

feelings hurt.

Who's fault is that?

Mine, or theirs?

Part of me thinks it's MY FAULT, because I continue to go into these same situations in the same way, somehow creating the same outcome for myself. Forcing myself into the same horrible situation... however, another part of me thinks that its THEIR FAULT because every experience that I can remember has resulted in getting my feelings hurts. And not like sappy heartbroken crying kinda hurt, but the disappointing wishing things you let me down kinda feelings hurt. So once again, is that MY FAULT for thinking too much of guys? Or am I setting myself down a pathway to nowhere once again because I would be going into every situation thinking that guys will be nothing more than a disappointment because they never meet my expectations? And I really don't think my expectations are too high...I'm a pretty reasonable person...understanding, caring, compassionate, honest...

This topic confuses me...and I know that I won't figure this out in entirety, given that everyone is different...just thought the topic would spark some ideas mentally within!

Feedback til next time?

Peace & Blessings -- C.LO :)